first there was c and i cheated on him
and then there was j and he beat the shit out of me
and then there was v and he treated me nicely, just a little too sane, only tried cocaine once and was a c.o.
and
i could never go that route...

then there was all the j's i had crushes on
and then there was the other j who was a bit crooked but my favorite
not that j or that j or that j or that j...another j.
the one who told me i was bella
and the one who i saw the aurora borealis with
and we went to iceland too
and we would push our children on the swings
and we talked conspiracies
oh but it was all a dream

and then reality hit
like a smack in the face
and there was you
oh bobby

closing my eyes dreaming of you&me
get me out of this nightmare

the
loneliness, it is a strange thing.
i wonder how so many of you just live alone
how do you do it?

i used to prefer to be alone
now i can't stand it
is this what love does or just codependency?