8 months you've been gone

some days are easier than others. today is not one of those days. 

sometimes when your doing simple things around the house, maybe you'll think of me and smile

allen ginsberg quote i love

“I really would like to stop working forever–never work again, never do anything like the kind of work I’m doing now–and do nothing but write poetry and have leisure to spend the day outdoors and go to museums and see friends. And I’d like to keep living with someone — maybe even a man — and explore relationships that way. And cultivate my perceptions, cultivate the visionary thing in me. Just a literary and quiet city-hermit existence." Allen Ginsberg

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Sometimes when i Think of B im reminded of frankenstein

"I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other" Frankenstein

Thinking of you tonight O

I now understand why people go to psychics, are determined to astral project, practice channeling, even believe in past lives, etc. some days i miss you so much i can’t even get out of bed anymore. all my secrets and past died with you and i wish i could have been there at your end. You would think nights are the loneliest but really it’s momebts when i hear a song, when i look to myleft in the car, see something i would have told you about, had an experience I’d love to share, etc. When you share something with one person and then while you two have unfinished business they go away it is really hard. You were my best friend and could have been even more if only the timing was right and i didn’t take the easy way so much.

After you passed nothing’s been the same . It’s getting very hard to cope with death for me . I should feel lucky it took 32 years to feel this emotion . I don’t know why but i guess i thought I’d never be close enough to get hurt