1.21.2009

lets try not to sound like a 3 year old baby

my parents want to have me committed fucking stupid antics i am getting sober and now they think i am on things...finally im trying to be sober and this shit is pulled
they know i take vicodins all pist about that
okay...give me a pill or a perc or hand me the fucking needle then lets see your jaw drop
its all ridiculous really
im going through all these withdrawals with no medicine besides what i can find
amphetamine psychosis SUCKSi refill on friday so ill b e shitty til then
but j. has been there through it all

weve never been happier
he likes me sober
i like him sober too
its strange
hes the only one though
& i dont want to do it for him i gota do it for us or for myself or soemthing
last night i was sober
besides the percs
2 vics
klonopin
barbitute
(its like an appetizer)
i just elt good and loved and nothing was starry eyed for once

i want to improve on that
i dont want to be fucking institutionilized bc i know what im going through
my parents are fucking drama bores

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